Beach.Thanksgiving.Beach

Helloooo all my lovely people!!
How are we??!!

I am doing great!! and have had the most spectacular week so far!!
Soooo I said in my last blog that I would let you know a bit more about the spiritual warfare lectures that we've had this week... so here we go!!

We had Beryl speaking this week... maaan such a Spirit filled, powerful woman of God!!
And basically she was talking about Spiritual Warfare and kind of giving us all a lot of insight into the whole "Our struggle is not against flesh and blood but against the rulers and authorities and powers of this dark world..." type of stuff! It was actually really interesting and made a lot of sense... because when you actually look at a situation you can see that often it has a spiritual root!

So we've been doing a lot of stuff like deliverance and stuff this week which is always pretty intense, but so good! We also had some pretty crazy like angelic encounters and stuff! Like one of the girls' (I won't sasy who for privacy reasons) was having some pretty major deliverance, and a lot of us could hear a trumpet blowing at the same time and assumed that someone was just playing one of the shofer's which we have... later on, when we were asking who played the trumpet, no one had....!
An angel was playing a trumpet in the lecture room...??!! FLIP! I realise that this probably sounds super weird to you all and a little bit crazy... but I wanna let you know that it sounded pretty crazy to me too before coming! But seriously... the more I am getting to know God, the more I'm realising that a lot of this spiritual stuff is very real! Try asking Him about it if you really wanna know!

Anyway... what else...??!! Soo God has been showing himself to me even more this week... teaching me even more about just how deep and merciful and beautiful his love is for me... and totally not dependent on what I do or don't do for him! Infact God's been teaching me about how it's not about doing stuff FOR God, but actually it's about doing stuff WITH Him... Flip! Jesus is still helping me get my head around this one!

The other day God told me that I'm beautiful... but didn't just tell me... He gave my heart a revelation about what this actually means... God thinks ALL of me is beautiful??!! even the bits that I struggle to accept He thinks are beautiful! Man... I was in tears... (I seem to be doing a LOT of crying!)

The other day God told me that He brings me too His banquet table and that His banner over me is love...
He showed me a picture of a table with a MASSIVE Feast on it! SO much food! And I was sitting at the table looking at kind of hesitantly, and then I felt him say to me "All of this I give to you my love... This abundance of gifts and good things I give to you..." This was crazy! so yeah... little things like this... God is continually giving me little glimpses of his love... and what it means to be intimate with Him... Annnd a lot of other awesome stuff! God is good!

Also.... we (just the muso's) spent the weekend at this beach house at Raglan! it was sweet! We wrote songs, ate pancakes, WENT TO THE BEACH!!! and I had my first thanksgiving! aaaannd it was a good one!! SO MUCH YUM FOOD! it was beautiful... plus... we went to the beach... which is definitly worth stating twice!

Soo... I'll update you on what has been happening THIS week, tommorow!... darn it! I'm getting behind myself!

Anyhow! love you all! :)

Pizza, Pancakes and Tim Tam's

Oh man! it seems that every blog title is about food these days! But I have eaten so much lately...
Ha! I've actually had the best few days! Not only did we have such a relaxing weekend, YESTERDAY we had our last small group time ever coz from now on we're going to do prep for outreach in the time where we would normally have had small groups... SO! we (Rebekka, Marit, Miranda and myself lead by the lovely Janessa and Tiff tiff) decided that we would get all pretty-ified and hit the raging town of Matamata for dinner :)

Tiff sadly was/is sick :(
but the rest of us got all dressed up, donned bright red lipstick and a LOT of hairspray (Marit!) and basically just got dressed up :)
This was a lot more exciting then it sounds because this is literally the first time we had got dressed up in a long time! So it was nice to feel like a eye-popping female for a little while ;) I also shaved my legs... for the first time in a loooong time... it was like trying to mow a field of unruly wheat!

THEN! this morning... we all made our way to the A-frame for brekkie at 7 like normal, only to find a concerned looking Rich outside....

"We've had a break in guys... everything in the lecture room has been stolen...." needless to say we were all shocked... particularly when we realized that the beautiful guitars had also been supposedly stolen! We all formed a huddle and started praying... Korean style! we then turn around to find a line of smug looking staff waiting behind us... looking surprisingly spiffy! "Got ya!" they say... eyes twinkling... "Come on inside!"

So we enter and what a surprise meets our eyes!! Candle-lit tables, beautifully set, each person had a place set for them with a name tag and encouragement note... *sigh* it was soooo lovely! THEN we were all literally waited on by our lovely staff members to a feast of french toast, pancakes, bacon, egg, hashbrowns, coffee, juice, fruit, yogurt.... THE WORKS! We even got serenaded by Rich with a beautiful song in his John Travolta voice.... maaaan we all felt so blessed! Needless to say any thought of trying to eat extra healthy to make up for the food extravaganza the night before went out the window...

I am now growing a food baby.... my belly button even momentarily became an outy! anyway... it was a delicious experience all round...

ANYWAY! This week we are having Beryl talk about spiritual warfare! man it's awesome! learning so much stuff which I had just never really thought about! It's only day two at the moment so I'll let you know how it all pans out later on, but I have a feeling it's going to be a killer week!
God is still working in my heart... it's a daily process of coming fresh into his abundant grace and allowing him to take the control... NOT trying to doing it by myself! yeah... so God is slowly pulling out the things that need to pulled out, and planting the things that need to be planted! Setting my heart more and more on fire for him, and I'm falling more and more in love with Him...

We are all going to come back from this very changed people! It's going to be good!

The boys all learnt the haka yesterday... it's pretty entertaining! I love how into it they get!... also many of them a growing mullets... WHY!!??

Soooo I'll catch you laters :) gotta go for work program!! WOOOHHH

Coffee

Hello all!!

Soooo for those of you who know me well, you'll know that it's been on my heart for a long while to write a song about my dear friend and companion... COFFEE!! and I'd like to inform you now that it has been written!! and it goes like this...

Ooooooooooo Yeah I love you baby!
Ooooooooooo I'm addicted to you!

Some people people love you,
but some hate you,
but almost everyone likes your smell

You're so dark, so smooth, so handsome
Sometimes even covered in chocolate sprinkles
Mmmm so dark, so smooth, so handsome
I wanna drink you in! Yeah drink you in!

I love the way that you make me feel, first thing in the morning,
just the way that you look, the way that you taste
mmm you make my heart skip a beat
Babe you don't have to say a word (and you don't really ever say a word)
Just let me drink in your love!

Soooo there you go! it has happened!
 Anyway in other news we have a free weekend this weekend, all the OP's are away on a boat so all the muso's have the base to themselves!! WOOOOHH!! Me and Noemi and Steph are going to build a FORT!! and it's going to be ammmaaazzzinnng !!
I was however, talking to Schnegg the other day about his forting habits and he said (and I quote) "Robinson! I'm 20! Twenty year olds don't build forts!" WHAT??!! BLASPHEMY!! Building forts is an essential part of life that should be enjoyed by everyone! anyway.... it's going to be good!

We had Luke Parker and Strahan come visit us today to do a song writing workshop... it was good! and I learnt heaps!
Flip... God is/has totally wrecked me this past week! We had Goldie Gibson come and talk to us about having a heart transplant from God... I asked him at the beginning of the week for a revelation of my heart (always dangerous!) and that he did! Turns out I have been repressing all of this stuff in my heart... all this anger and resentment and pride and selfishness and self hatred and BLEUGH! it was disgusting! maaan I was in tears... but God's been teaching me that he wants to meet me where I am, AS I AM! maan that was a big revelation! infact he's still giving me revelations about it! Teaching me not to repress it all or to try and fix it myself, but to actually let God take control and give it to him to deal with... which was super scary for me... because it meant that this part of my heart, so carefully hidden from the public eye, would have to be dealt with... and he is dealing with it in his loving faithfulness... I've literally had to just run outside and just scream and sob on a couple of occassions this week as God taught me that he died for THAT part of me! Not just my "Good christian, I never doubt God, or ever struggle to love God" image, he LOVES the part of me that is STRUGGLING!! Man this completely tore me apart.... and I get the feeling that this is going to be a process! But God is in control... Your will be done in my heart Lord!

What else is there to report?! Hmmm oh yeah! I CUT HANNAH'S HAIR!! haha I've never cut anyone's hair before and it was pretty exciting! It wasn't just a trim either... like she used to have hair down to her waist and now she has a bob! I love her so much and I'm so proud of her her cutting it! It was a big deal... I'm also secretly quite proud of myself... coz it looks really nice! (haha when I said this to Matt and Brent they said "Hannah, you're not secretly proud at all! You're telling everyone..." this is probably true!)
We're also getting more into this whole song writing thing which is awesome!

Also.... THANKYOU MY BEAUTIFUL FAMILY FOR THE PACKAGE!! It literally made my day :) it had coffee and chocolate in it...and socks (typical Tom) and vitamin tablets (typical Mum) it it! I love you!

Also... I'm going to do a bit of letter writing! So keep your eyes on the mail people!
AWESOME
Love you lots! xxo

Hair cut

So, the reason for the title is just that Steph is about to give my hair a slight trim, and I couldn't think of a title... so this is the best I could come up with! Soooo I know I promised that I would update you all on what God's been doing the past two weeks last Friday... but truth be told... we were out evangelising till almost midnight aaaannnd by that stage I couldn't be bothered... and then I forgot... sooo I'm doing it now....

me and Mimi chillin in a van!

Oh man… where to begin! God has been doing some crazy stuff! The whole school was about Evangelism, which to be honest I was quite sceptical about at first (“Street evangelism? Reeeeaaallly…?” ) BUT it was actually incredible and I learnt so much about God and his character and his heart for the lost. It also totally changed my view on street evangelism! Mostly cause we were doing it! And God actually used us! Maaaannn totally by the grace of God, I was able to be a part of leading some people to Christ!! AAARRG! That’s so exciting! And they were hungry for it… Revival is starting in New Zealand for sure… it’s going to be incredible! In the last two weeks we saw 120 people give their hearts to God (people on the street that is) and also incredible healings like a person’s leg growing to the right length before their eyes!! FLIP! God is good…

So the two weeks consisted of lots classes with these crazy Californian speakers called Sammie and Chase (I may have mentioned them in my last blog?.. can’t remember…) and basically what we were doing in these classes were allowing god to come and heal us spiritually from stuff like shame and fear and unbelief and rejection etc… because when we’ve got that stuff in us it’s like a cloud hanging over us, making it harder to hear God’s voice and thus making us not so effective during evangelism..

all of us (minus Beth and Dan) on free weekend with Sammie and Chase and co... who we got to hang with!

God literally hit me with stuff everyday.. The biggy for me was shame! God totally freed me from the shame of something that had happened which I had totally repressed in myself and didn’t even realise was an issue (Ha! Thank goodness God knows better), he just brought it to my attention, and I knew that I needed to confess this to someone… So I had a little heart to heart with Hannah, and as I was pouring out my heart, my eyes began to pour out aswell… I had so much shame attached with that one thing that I didn’t even know about! But in that moment God totally released me from that! He is sooo good! And then later on that day he said to me “Hannah, now that the shame is out of the way, I can begin to show you who you are in me” hahaha so that’s what he’s begun to do!

So far he’s told me that I am a warrior for him, that I am his bride (He’s still speaking to me about this one…), that he’s going to give a new name, and that he created me to be free!! He’s also begun to break fear off my life and is teaching me about what it means to be weak and vunerable, but to step out in his strength! Hahaha so yeah… as you can see God is doing some pretty major stuff in me at the moment… and teaching a lot about intimacy with him aswell!... The last two weeks were a little bit scary, fun, pretty draining but completely and totally worth it! Maaaannn God is good!

There was a lot of “AND I REBUKE FEAR IN JESUS NAME!!” and “GLORY SAUCE” and “JOYFUL REPENTANCE!” basically a lot of shouting involved… which meant that by the end of the week… some would say that my voice had a nice husky drawl… others would say that I’d just lost it! But either way it was doing weird things!

Anyways…

 peace out g-units! Thanks for all the love and prayers and stuff! 

LOVE YOU J

FOR NARNIA!!!!

Oh myyy goodness!!
Firstly.... I'm so happy right now!! God is flipping amazing... I just wanna say I love my amazing Matamata family!! Like actually... we are family :)

Anyways.... where do I even start?? NARNIA!!
So... this weekend... we had our free weekend and decided that it would super fly to rent a couple of vans and go up to the Coromandal to Cathedral Cove and Hot Water Beach and just kind of hang out!! Sooo big props to Becc and Henk and everyone who organized it it was awesome... We decided that it would be more way more fun to kind wing it and not plan places to sleep or anything, just rent a couple of tents and see where the adventure takes us! and ohhh what an adventure it was! On Saturday morning we loaded up our vans, with music pumping and with Marit and Kyle at the wheel set out into the sunshine! It was so fuuun! and we met Sammie and Chase and thier pals completely randomally at this look out so hung out with them for the day aswell! It was SWEET! (Sammie and Chase are these two crazy Californians who are speaking at the Circuit Riders conference that we've been going too for last week and this week) So that was sweet! We all frolicked on the beach and swam in the sea and took lots of pictures and pretended we were in NARNIA!! Aaarrg! it was amazing :) aaaannd I think we all learnt that God totally has our backs! hahaha basically God got us out from a four hundred dollar fine!! we parked weirdly... and apparently in an illegal fashion, but this lady talked the cops out of giving us a fine!! THANKYOU JESUS! and theeen Kyle accidentally left the lights on in the van... so the batterry went flat... but completally randomally we found this guy who had this box thing so we were back on the road in like 5 mins... PRAISE GOD!

aaaannndd then... the big thing was the sleeping arrangments!! We were totally hoping that we would all be able to sleep outside under the stars... BUUUT it was pouring with rain! hahaha soooo tensions were running high when it was after dark and we couldn't find anywhere to sleep... hahaha and then completally randomally this lady came up to us at while we were getting food and was like "Hey... there's this really cheap hostle place that you could stay at!!" So we get there and geuss how many beds they had available??!! 18... and geuss how many of us there were.... 18!!!! PRAISE GOD!!

hahahaha so yeah... God is a really good Dad!

Also!! We found out where we are going on outreach....!!!! OHHH BOYYYY!!!!!! My goodness I am so excited!! It is going to be amazing... like actaully.... My team is aweeesssoooommmeee... The leaders are Johanna and Matt and the others are Miranda, Matt, Elisa and Kyle! Saweeettt! Sadly I can't tell you where I'm going online for protection reasons... soo if you really want to know call me or write me or VISIT me :) buuut tis going to awesome and God's hand is totally all over it!

sooo this is just a snippet (I like that word!) of whats been happenning! I have yet to tell you all the exciting stuff which God's been doing in me and in everyone at Circuit Riders! (Flip it's exciting!) buuutt that will have to wait until tommorow coz Hansy has just put on Pride and Prejudice... sooo yeah! :)

But catch yous laters!! :)