I like discovering things!!

Hellooooo there everybody!
So! What news do I have for you all?!
Life here is going splendidly!! In fact yesterday I got to go to the beach... TWICE! which was sweet because I love the beach and Tauranga is beautiful and I'm surrounded by beautiful people!

I HAVE OUTREACH NEWS!! So as it turns out we are not going to Malaysia after all!! Ashley (the school leader) had a word a couple of weeks ago from the Lord basically checking our hearts and making sure that even if we didn't go to Malaysia that we would still trust God and go wherever he called us to go! Anyway... we all started praying about it and all of us felt that actually God wanted us to stay in NZ and begin sowing into the land here paving the way for revival!! WOOPP WOOP! And the weird thing is I'm actually really excited about it! Like more excited then I was about Malaysia! Which is odd considering that I'm a Kiwi and I love travelling to new places! But God's good like that :) And I know that He's not only going to provide everything that we need for this outreach but also that He's going to use us mightily!
Yeeeeeee!

Anyway what else is God doing in me??!!
well... the other day I was in the shower (yes they do have showers here praise the Lord!) and I heard God say to "Hannah, you don't truly believe that I am good."
And I was just like "What are you talking about God?! I know that You are good"
And God was like "Well how come you can't confess your hope that you're going to get married one day? It's because you don't believe that I'm going to do provide for that..."
I was just like "FLIP! You're right God!" And God was just like "Hannah, I want to teach you about my goodness..."
hahaha... and that's what He's doing!!

In my mind I had this stereotype that seeking God is all about praying and fasting and having those one on one times with God where you are just saturated in His presence! I love those times and I know  that God loves them too because the whole purpose of us being created is to love God and be loved by God... BUT God's totally opening my eyes to the fact that when we do things like go exploring, or enjoy a really good meal, I have those moments where you laugh so hard you cry, or just having a really tasty chat with someone you love, or just enjoy laying in the sunshine, that actually, if we open our eyes enough, we're discovering God! Learning more about His heart, about how He loves to delight us, and His ABSOLUTE GOODNESS!!

So yeah... God's taking me on this kind of journey where He's like reminding me of things... like "Hey, do you remember that time you were at the beach and you felt so free and full of joy that you thought you would explode? Well... I was laughing so hard until the point that I cried with absolute delight! I love to delight you Hannah!"

Sooo yeah! God is really good :) And get a load of this.... God is super natural... So the more natural we are the more super He can be through us! SO basically we don't need to try and be "More spiritual" or anything like that! The more we are truly ourselves, and allow God to show us what that really means, the more God can work through us :)

YEAH!!! Soooo GOOODDD!!!!
Anyway... I hope you're all doing well and having fabulous days wherever you are! As for me... I'm going to see whose keen to go to the mount..... I love the mount!! Maybe go for a run and do a spot of cleaning!! WOOP! Loving the lazy Sundays!

Peace Out Y'all!!

BURNING!!!

OH. MY. LIFE!

Well this has been one of the crazier weeks of my life!!!!! Life is going awesome, at this moment I have ALEX POWELL sitting at my left and I have Daniel and Richard having a little boogie in our doorway... in fact we're all having a little boogie coz they're putting on a ''two man boy band show" and have been for the last half an hour... haha just a typical YWAM night... HAHAHA!!

ANYWAY! God is amazing....I'm gonna get straight to the Jesus part because that is definitely the best part!
This week is probably be the most insane week I've ever had... I KNOW that this is totally where God has placed me!! Ok... So Me and Arielle have been worship leading every Monday so it's been real interesting every Sunday... If either of us are going to have a crappy day it will always, without out fail, be on a Sunday.. And here's what I say about that.. SPIRITUAL WARFARE!! But God has won the victory!!

How do I sum up what God's done in me this week in a few words?? I seriously do not know!!!
Basically God has taken me on this journey in literally a week... starting with last Sunday where I was all like in a strop... "God I'm sick of feeling like I always have to pursue you! Can you pursue me?!" Which is dumb because God pursues me much more than I pursue Him! But God's grace is so big that He even answers those little insecure cries! So on Sunday basically God gave me all these prophecies people repeating all these really intimate things that God had spoken over me... like it was so funny! God was just like BOOM there it is! I was cracking up... but this was nothing compared to what was to come....

We had Sammie (this awesome evangelistic guy) speaking this week and this worship leader called Lindy speaking a bit too... they're from this movement called Circuit Riders... and on Tuesday Lindy was worship leading and I was supposed to be a back up singer... haha... that didn't happen! I spent the night weeping on my knees because God brought this huuugge and sweet conviction into my heart! Basically God revealed how much entitlement I had about worship like thinking that I was somehow worthy to lead people in worship because I had proved myself or something stupid like that... and also just about how I had lost my first love... like I used to LOVE just worshipping Jesus... Me, Him and a guitar... but it's like worship had become something that I just need to do...

Anyway to sum up it up... God spoke to me pretty clearly basically saying... "Hannah, You've been praying that you want to go deeper in me... Want to know more of my heart, but the only way to go deeper in to completely die to yourself... pick up your cross and follow me.." Amidst all this conviction... I realised that deep down I could NEVER be satisfied doing anything other than just that! That was what I was made for... It's what I want! The cry of the depths of my heart...

Anyway... the rest of the week God has literally blown my mind! Given me a ridiculous amount of prophecies through completely different people... all pointing in the same direction though... Basically that God's going to use me radically to raise up a generation of burning lovers of Jesus...
He has put this new fire in my heart... like literally as I'm typing this I feel as though I'm about to burst.... Man.. Everybody has to know about Jesus! Flip!!!

Anyway... a LOT of stuff happened this week but if I'm to sum it up... God spoke to me very clearly saying I'm about it EKBALO (release) you and a whole lot of other burning individuals to release revival in this nation... I'm sitting here just like "WHAT Jesus??!!! But I'm SO BROKEN??!!" But at the same time... everything in me is just like "YESSSSS!!! This is what my heart is crying out for!" I know that this is what you have set in my heart and created me for!" But at the same time I feel like God's taking me to this place where I'm like "God even if you take all of this away I want to be fully in love and satisfied in you!!"

FLIP! I literally feel like I'm about to explode!! Like FOR REAL God is about to release something in this nation and it's gonna be flippin incredible!!!

Anyway! this is pretty much the haps!!
Peace out y'all!

Falling on my knees... Literally.

Sooo this past week has been an interesting one!! Hahaha I love the YWAM lifestyle, but it does promote lack of sleep!! What with getting up early to have some beautiful time with Jesus and then going to bed super late because of all the cool people hanging around outside our door! And today… I’m feeling it… so this blog could be on the odd side, but that’s ok! I’ve had 3 cups of coffee and I’ve just finished dancing in the rain so I’ll be fine!

Well what’s been happening??

Well Jesus has been totally wrecking my life… in the best possible way!

So… last week we had Shirley Brownhill speaking… Oh my… She just opens here mouth and speaks in her soft motherly voice and the Holy Spirit just falls… bringing so much conviction and TRUTH.

Jesus was just totally convicting me all throughout the week on areas of pride and mistrust and comparisons, and then on Friday…. FLIP!

We had a time of ministry where we had the opportunity to just get right before God with the stuff that he’d been convicting us with during the week. So I went up for prayer… and God used this to bring up all this stuff to do with the Father heart of God.. didn’t even know that that was an issue but basically God brought up all this stuff to do with how I have this mistrust towards God, and also to do with a lot of people in my life, particularly guys… anyway… I started bawling… like BAWLING out of some deep wound in my heart and God just totally broke that in my life… and oh… the feeling of freedom that came afters was BEAUTIFUL!!

Anyway… you’re probably wondering about the title of this blog… it has to do partly with falling on my knees in front of Jesus…  my beautiful saviour… but partly to do with what happened this Tuesday evening…

HAHAHAHA it was so funny.

It actually starts off with a pretty cool story! So Josh and Marty (two of the directors of the YWAM base here) are quite in the habit of throwing me and Arielle out of our comfort zones by asking us to worship lead sometimes literally twenty minutes before we get up to lead haha which we are getting a lot better at, and it means that when you get up there you totally have to rely on God… coz there ain’t nothing else to rely on!

Anyway this particular Tuesday this same thing had happened and I, if I’m being honest really did not feel like getting up to lead, but me and Arielle got up there… Just us and an acoustic guitar… plus the flippin creator of the universe… and the Holy Spirit just fell in the place like I’ve never seen before! Hahaha God has the most hilarious timing! Like literally we didn’t end up having a messege that night because God was just moooovvving! It was awesome! People were prophicying over each other, getting healed… some without even going forward for prayer! God is amazing… and can use anything… haha so good…

Anyway, there was one part of the evening where everybody was getting up to pray and lay hands on Brianna, I got up rather enthusiastically at exactly the same point that Nicolas decided that he needed to stretch his foot… I went flying and nose dived into the carpet infront of everybody… of course it WOULD be the German who slyly stuck out his foot ;) I’m just joking… I love Germans… But it was particularly funny I have to say!

Yah! But it’s all going rather fast! And it’s crazy just watching God move! Like I take this miniscule step of obedience following His call to come back to YWAM and He runs 10000000 miles  to come and meet me! YAAAAAAHHH!!! God is good

Peace out!!

T to the Raunga

Hello everybody J It has been a while!

So guess what… I'm in YWAM. AGAIN. And it’s amazing.

There is a slight back story which all started a couple of weeks ago…. When I was in Auckland… Actually it starts a bit further back then that! When I first came back from my last YWAM experience I felt God say that He would call me to what was next… So I was like ‘SWEET! Yah God turn me into a woman of faith! I wanna live by FAITH!’

God answers prayers.

Sooo like two weeks ago when I was up in Auckland, had my Jesus time and had the random thought go through my head “Go and visit Elisa down in Tauranga”….

Then went….

And then had this overwhelming desire to be a part of the school that she was doing (Called ‘Serephim’s Cry’, a school of music and worship)…

Then had a few people come up to me and say “I don’t know why, but I feel like you’re meant to be on this school”…

Then had my parents blessing in all of this… (a miracle in itself)

Then had my work let me leave without having to complete my two weeks notice, had random people give my anonymous envelope’s of money, and had  quite a few people come and give me pictures and words that God had given them for me all pointing towards me doing this Seraphim’s Cry school and I was convinced. This was the next move, and every door was opened to enable me to go.

BOOOM! So I packed and left in literally about a week and half and now I’m up here just loving life! And boy! God is moooovvviiinnngg….

So lemme tell you a little bit about life up here! I’m crammed in a room designed for four people to live in with five other girls!! It makes life very exciting and cozy J I love ma girls! We’ve got Elisa the sassy German, Irene the K pop loving American, Kyndal the cute country girl from Georgia, Ariel the fierce, Brooke Fraser loving gal from Louisiana and the beautiful Faith… who’s a KIWI!! Wooooh!!

Anyway… we’ve already had some crack up times like having to get all Bear Grylls and exterminate a whole bunch of ants who thought invading our room would be a fun afternoon activity! DANG IT! We also love having a little boogie every now and then!

Hmmm what else is there… Oh yes… the NEIGBOURS! Our relationship with guys next door started off innocently… what with the occasionally lullaby being sung through the wall and “Could we please borrow a cup of sugar?” type stuff… but I couldn’t help but notice things had begun to change when I spied Andy standing outside our door trying to coax us out with a huge fire hose in his hands! Ready for attack Well… if this is how it is Andy… then this means WAR!

Hmmm Jesus! Wow… God is already changing, growing and stretching and blowing my mind! Like I came with the rather proud attitude of “I don’t have that much more to learn about God…” BAHAHAHA!!

Well… That’s definitely not the case… God spoke to me pretty clearly about that and was just like “Hannah… You haven’t even scratched the surface on who I am… Dive into the ocean of my love and I’m going to take you on the most thrilling adventure of discovering even more of my heart!”

BOOM! So that’s what He’s been doing! Blowing my mind… Teaching me yet again how to receive… because… the extent in which we know (experience intimately and intellectually) how much God loves us, will be the extent in which we love God…. WOOOW!!

He’s been bringing me back to that truth that a relationship with God is not transactional (“God I’ll do this so you have to do this”) but completely and utterly relational…. Hahaha man… How I love You Jesus!

God also gave me the verse through several people… “ I pray that out of His glorious riches He may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being.” –Ephesians 3:16

Flip! God is that seriously what you’re intending to do?!! WOOOOW :D!!

Also God has totally been growing and stretching in worship… haha by putting me and Ariel on worship leading all of the worship times at the base which is quite a lot, for the next few weeks… HAHAHA! At first I was like “what??!! So much pressure” but then God was like “I’m going to bring you joy in this and strengthen you… just bring your loaves and fishes and I’ll multiply it!” And that’s exactly what He’s been doing! He’s so faithful… and I love it! AND Him J And He totally blew my mind with the revelation that Worship is a DANCE!!!

Just like everything about God it’s completely relational! Worship is a dance with God! Like we just totally surrender to Him and then He dances with us! FLIP! That’s incredible…

Anyway… sorry this blog took so long to happen, and I’ll end my musing and ramblings here…

Wow this is super long….

And now even longer… HAHAHAHA... I got to see my Hannah from Tennessee :) lalalala 

Peace out y’all!!

Oh and by the way… we found out where we’re going on outreach….

Wait for it… MALAYSIA!! AAAHHHHH super stoked.

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mmmmm Romance.....

Well!! Life is in full swing back in middle earth! (sorry.... I saw The Hobbit again last night and in my mind I keep expecting to see giant eagles coming out of the sky.... or maybe a small herd of orks living under my bed...) Anyway! I have a job.... it's fun and they feed me lots of coffee... I get to see my lovely friends in welly again.... they also lovingly feed me lots of coffee.... and those new mint kitkat things!! They are taaaasssstttyyyy!

 But! The God of all the universe is still romancing me... FLIP it's so incredible watching him move!!

So I thought I'd share some of the ways that he's been whispering in my ear lately....

The other day, I was sitting in a cafe when the song 'Yellow' by Coldplay came on. I felt Jesus whisper in my ear "Hannah, this is my song to you..."
At first I was like 'na..... I must have just made that up! The God of the universe wouldn't give me love songs, I should be giving them to him!' But then again I heard him whisper... "Hannah you are my beloved.... I am the bridegroom.... of course I want to give you a love song... isn't that what a fiance would do for his bride? And you are my bride!"
Flip.... rather soon I was in tears....

Here are the lyrics... (stuff in brackets is what God spoke to me through each line)

Flip! Let him speak to you too through it!!

YELLOW

Look at the stars, Look how they shine for you (they are my promise of a future for you)
And everything that you do... (my gift for you to enjoy)
Yeah they were all yellow (filled with my glory)

I came along, I wrote a song for you (My song to you my darling)
And all the things you do
And it was called 'Yellow'

So then I took my turn (to romance you)
Oh what a thing to have done (I did it! It's not about what you do)
And it was all yellow

You're skin...
Oh yeah you're skin and bone (I'm making beauty from ashes)
Turned into something beautiful (all beautiful you are my darling)
You know, you know I love you so (I LOVE YOU!)
You know I love you so (I love you so much I said it twice)

I swam across, I jumped across for you (I crossed the divide between us)
Oh what I thing to do (I did it... for you)
Cause you were all yellow (because I'm captivated by you)

I drew a line, I drew a line for you (I set you free... gave you hope... you're no longer stuck in the past) 
Oh what a thing to do
And it was all yellow (filled with my glory)

You're skin, Oh yeah you're skin and bones
Turned into something beautiful
And you know
For you I'd bleed myself dry (I'd die for you)
For you I'd bleed myself dry (I'd give my whole life up for you)

It's true (I am truth)
Look how they shine for you (my gift to you my darling)
Look how they shine for you (delight yourself in me)
Look how they shine for you (I said it three times to show it's importance...)

Fairies

So a few weeks ago.... actually about a month ago (when I was still on outreach) FLIP TIME GOES SO FAST!!! We got to go and have tea at my uncle and aunts house... and all my cousins! It was sweet!!
BUT this one thing happened when me and a couple others were talking to the youngest cousin in that family, Ruby....
We were just having a nice chat about, I don't know... puppies or something that little girls like to talk about... when suddenly she sees a fairy blow past... (you know.. those little things which come off dandelions I think... and float in the breeze). She stopped what she was saying, stood up and said "Oh! I'm sorry but I HAVE to catch this!" And then she ran off and chased the fairy til she caught it!
haha so cute.... but oddly enough God has been speaking to me a lot through this little encounter... about allowing him to delight me "delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart" and all that! And also about catching and looking for those moments of beauty that he gives every day... those little whispers about himself that he gives all the time!
Haha God is so good!

It's funny... cause now, often I'll be talking to Jesus and I'll see a fairy blow past... God's reminder that he's there and he loves me!
AND THE OTHER DAY....

I was lying on the trampoline in the back yard, playing Jack, my beautiful guitar, and singing to Jesus, when I looked up into the sky and saw literally HUNDREDS of those fairies floating through the sky!!!
hahaha WHAT!!!??? God doesn't just love a little... he loves me a LOT!!! Thankyou Jesus!!!

Man... it's incredible how much God wants to speak to us when we actually stop and look and listen....

WOOOH!! Life is good :)

Peace out my lovelies!!

Valentines Day...

So! It's been a while my fellow minions!

And I'm very aware that this blog hasn't been updated in a veeerrrryyy long time!! And I can assure that a lot of spectacularly life changing things have occurred within the last 2 and a half months, it is going to take a very long time to portray all that happened on this blog! Sooo this is where typical-procrastination prone Hannah kicks in and I'm going to tall you about VALENTINES DAY!! which was actually the most beautiful one I've ever had!! Oh my WORD!!

Soooo my YWAM school is now over and I am back home with my lovely family at the moment along with two beautiful Americans.... Hannah and Bec! And we've been having a lovely time doing... well... nothing much!!
HOWEVER... we did organize a small over night expedition down to the Marlborough Sounds... without realizing it... on VALENTINES DAY!! ... to stay at Mistletoe Bay... how rooommmaaannttiiiccc

Anyway... the morning of the 14th comes around and we all get up bright and early in order to catch our ferry across the great divide... and feel the gentle whisper of my love... and the creator of the universe in my ear... saying... "Hannah... I want to romance you all today... Let me romance you today...."

And this is how our day panned out...
Wow...
We board the ferry on just a perfect morning.... sun shining and the sea is just beautiful!!! And a pod of dolphins... like at least 50... start swimming alongside the boat... FLIP!! It was incredible!!!
Then we get to Picton and are having a lovely time... and head down to the harbour... and the entire harbour is just filled with krill!! Till the point where the water seemed to be red!! It was actually just the coolest thing!!

We were so excited... and Hannah goes... "OH my goodness!! They're baby lobsters!!" haha...
And all the while we get the gentle whisper in our ears... "This is for you my beloved!"

Man!! How is it that the God of the universe... who actually deserves to romanced by us!! To have all of our adoration and praise... would want to romance us!!! hahaha!! It blows my mind...

Wooooop!! Then we hop aboard the water taxi and have the most beautiful ride through the Sounds... and man... anyone who knows me, knows how I feel about the sea! So for me... this was perfect!

We arrive at sed destination... Mistletoe bay... set up camp and just have the most lovely afternoon lazing on the beach... swimming... catching ducklings.... eating chocolate and drinking wine straight from the bottle... (we are ALL class...) It was actually just the most perfect day!!

AND THEN...
Oh my...
Night time rolls around.... and we get the most incredible star display... complete with the milky way and multiple shooting stars.... but wait for it!!
The best bit is coming up!!!
We go down to the dock... and notice that the water is sparkling.... it was absolutely TEEMING with Fosflourescents!! ('scuse the awful spelling!)

For those of you who don't know what they are... you know in the movie Avatar....on that planet... it has those plants that light up when you touch them... it's like that but in the water...

You touch the water and some form of bacteria lights up and  sparkles and it is flipping INCREDIBLE!!!
So... we got to swim in water which lit up every time you moved underneath a starlit night in the sea... We may or may not have gone skinny dipping....
 AAARRGG! Thankyou Jesus....

Hahahaha... to me I can think of absolutely nothing more fabulously perfect!!.... and with such beautiful people aswell.... Jesus, I love you!!

So yeah.... that was Valentines Day... lalalala!
Enjoy this beautiful song by Gungor...
It's my favourite at the moment...