BURNING!!!

OH. MY. LIFE!

Well this has been one of the crazier weeks of my life!!!!! Life is going awesome, at this moment I have ALEX POWELL sitting at my left and I have Daniel and Richard having a little boogie in our doorway... in fact we're all having a little boogie coz they're putting on a ''two man boy band show" and have been for the last half an hour... haha just a typical YWAM night... HAHAHA!!

ANYWAY! God is amazing....I'm gonna get straight to the Jesus part because that is definitely the best part!
This week is probably be the most insane week I've ever had... I KNOW that this is totally where God has placed me!! Ok... So Me and Arielle have been worship leading every Monday so it's been real interesting every Sunday... If either of us are going to have a crappy day it will always, without out fail, be on a Sunday.. And here's what I say about that.. SPIRITUAL WARFARE!! But God has won the victory!!

How do I sum up what God's done in me this week in a few words?? I seriously do not know!!!
Basically God has taken me on this journey in literally a week... starting with last Sunday where I was all like in a strop... "God I'm sick of feeling like I always have to pursue you! Can you pursue me?!" Which is dumb because God pursues me much more than I pursue Him! But God's grace is so big that He even answers those little insecure cries! So on Sunday basically God gave me all these prophecies people repeating all these really intimate things that God had spoken over me... like it was so funny! God was just like BOOM there it is! I was cracking up... but this was nothing compared to what was to come....

We had Sammie (this awesome evangelistic guy) speaking this week and this worship leader called Lindy speaking a bit too... they're from this movement called Circuit Riders... and on Tuesday Lindy was worship leading and I was supposed to be a back up singer... haha... that didn't happen! I spent the night weeping on my knees because God brought this huuugge and sweet conviction into my heart! Basically God revealed how much entitlement I had about worship like thinking that I was somehow worthy to lead people in worship because I had proved myself or something stupid like that... and also just about how I had lost my first love... like I used to LOVE just worshipping Jesus... Me, Him and a guitar... but it's like worship had become something that I just need to do...

Anyway to sum up it up... God spoke to me pretty clearly basically saying... "Hannah, You've been praying that you want to go deeper in me... Want to know more of my heart, but the only way to go deeper in to completely die to yourself... pick up your cross and follow me.." Amidst all this conviction... I realised that deep down I could NEVER be satisfied doing anything other than just that! That was what I was made for... It's what I want! The cry of the depths of my heart...

Anyway... the rest of the week God has literally blown my mind! Given me a ridiculous amount of prophecies through completely different people... all pointing in the same direction though... Basically that God's going to use me radically to raise up a generation of burning lovers of Jesus...
He has put this new fire in my heart... like literally as I'm typing this I feel as though I'm about to burst.... Man.. Everybody has to know about Jesus! Flip!!!

Anyway... a LOT of stuff happened this week but if I'm to sum it up... God spoke to me very clearly saying I'm about it EKBALO (release) you and a whole lot of other burning individuals to release revival in this nation... I'm sitting here just like "WHAT Jesus??!!! But I'm SO BROKEN??!!" But at the same time... everything in me is just like "YESSSSS!!! This is what my heart is crying out for!" I know that this is what you have set in my heart and created me for!" But at the same time I feel like God's taking me to this place where I'm like "God even if you take all of this away I want to be fully in love and satisfied in you!!"

FLIP! I literally feel like I'm about to explode!! Like FOR REAL God is about to release something in this nation and it's gonna be flippin incredible!!!

Anyway! this is pretty much the haps!!
Peace out y'all!

Falling on my knees... Literally.

Sooo this past week has been an interesting one!! Hahaha I love the YWAM lifestyle, but it does promote lack of sleep!! What with getting up early to have some beautiful time with Jesus and then going to bed super late because of all the cool people hanging around outside our door! And today… I’m feeling it… so this blog could be on the odd side, but that’s ok! I’ve had 3 cups of coffee and I’ve just finished dancing in the rain so I’ll be fine!

Well what’s been happening??

Well Jesus has been totally wrecking my life… in the best possible way!

So… last week we had Shirley Brownhill speaking… Oh my… She just opens here mouth and speaks in her soft motherly voice and the Holy Spirit just falls… bringing so much conviction and TRUTH.

Jesus was just totally convicting me all throughout the week on areas of pride and mistrust and comparisons, and then on Friday…. FLIP!

We had a time of ministry where we had the opportunity to just get right before God with the stuff that he’d been convicting us with during the week. So I went up for prayer… and God used this to bring up all this stuff to do with the Father heart of God.. didn’t even know that that was an issue but basically God brought up all this stuff to do with how I have this mistrust towards God, and also to do with a lot of people in my life, particularly guys… anyway… I started bawling… like BAWLING out of some deep wound in my heart and God just totally broke that in my life… and oh… the feeling of freedom that came afters was BEAUTIFUL!!

Anyway… you’re probably wondering about the title of this blog… it has to do partly with falling on my knees in front of Jesus…  my beautiful saviour… but partly to do with what happened this Tuesday evening…

HAHAHAHA it was so funny.

It actually starts off with a pretty cool story! So Josh and Marty (two of the directors of the YWAM base here) are quite in the habit of throwing me and Arielle out of our comfort zones by asking us to worship lead sometimes literally twenty minutes before we get up to lead haha which we are getting a lot better at, and it means that when you get up there you totally have to rely on God… coz there ain’t nothing else to rely on!

Anyway this particular Tuesday this same thing had happened and I, if I’m being honest really did not feel like getting up to lead, but me and Arielle got up there… Just us and an acoustic guitar… plus the flippin creator of the universe… and the Holy Spirit just fell in the place like I’ve never seen before! Hahaha God has the most hilarious timing! Like literally we didn’t end up having a messege that night because God was just moooovvving! It was awesome! People were prophicying over each other, getting healed… some without even going forward for prayer! God is amazing… and can use anything… haha so good…

Anyway, there was one part of the evening where everybody was getting up to pray and lay hands on Brianna, I got up rather enthusiastically at exactly the same point that Nicolas decided that he needed to stretch his foot… I went flying and nose dived into the carpet infront of everybody… of course it WOULD be the German who slyly stuck out his foot ;) I’m just joking… I love Germans… But it was particularly funny I have to say!

Yah! But it’s all going rather fast! And it’s crazy just watching God move! Like I take this miniscule step of obedience following His call to come back to YWAM and He runs 10000000 miles  to come and meet me! YAAAAAAHHH!!! God is good

Peace out!!